First, a confession. Reading Pamela Petro’s The Long Field was an exercise in nostalgia for me. I followed Petro to the university at Lampeter in West Wales (‘Probably the smallest university in the world,’ as the T-shirts in the Students’ Union shop proclaimed, Carlsberg advert-style) just four years later. All her descriptions ring so very true for me, were part of the landscape of my own young life. Even the cottage she lived in is well known to me, as a friend of mine rented it in my first year – I can picture myself back in that kitchen, drinking tea, watching my friend making jelly for dessert. My challenge in writing this review has been to come to the book from the outside, as it were, rather than from that place of shared experience.
The Long Field is, fundamentally, about hiraeth, a complex Welsh word which encompasses elements of longing, nostalgia, distance, absence, homesickness. It is famously untranslatable into English. But the book is also a love story. A love story on several levels, most obviously Petro’s sudden, unexpected, and deep passion for the landscape of rural Wales – again, something which resonates with me. But it is also about her relationships with her partner and with her parents, and an exploration of the complexities of those relationships. Perhaps it is an acknowledgement that love stories more nuanced than ‘boy meets girl and they live happily ever after’ are part of the lived experience of queer writers.
Although Petro is passionate about Wales – her Wales – she manages to stop short of being entirely rose-tinted about it. She acknowledges some of the nuanced complexity of Welsh identity and history, some of the ways in which her adopted homeland’s sense of itself as a colonial victim of English occupation can hold it back. As someone who has lived in Wales for a significant part of my adult life, it seems to me that Petro’s analysis of Wales is predominantly rural – the Wales of Ceredigion and the Cambrian Mountains – and intellectual and cultural. She does nod at the life of the Valleys, especially as she was in Wales in 1984 during the miners’ strike, but the industrial and post-industrial conurbations of South and North-East Wales, the product of migration from within Wales and beyond, are not the Wales that she knows and loves. Her Wales is that of the past etched into the landscape of the present. Of people connected, umbilically, to the places that shaped the generations before them. Of story made tangible in the land. Landscape – not only the fields, the mountains, the hills, but also the cultural echoes, the resonance that they have – is what Petro loves. Her inexplicable feeling of having ‘come home’ to that landscape when she, an American with no Welsh antecedents, arrived in Lampeter in 1983 is the starting point for the experiences that have shaped this book.
The Long Field is a remarkable book. Although it self-identifies on the cover as ‘A Memoir,’ it draws together strands of history, travelogue, a whistle-stop tour of Welsh literary heritage, place writing, pronunciation notes for the Welsh place names, linguistic detours, a coming-out narrative, family saga, and an exploration of identity. It is this last element, I think, which is the most important. Can someone identify with a place which they are not ‘from’ but where they nevertheless felt a shock of recognition when they first encountered it? Yes, says Petro – but is she is not claiming Welshness. Rather like entering into a relationship with a lover from a different culture who speaks a different language, she seeks – respectfully, gently – to learn, to understand, to value what the beloved values. What Petro found when she found her Wales filled a profound void in her psyche, provided a connectedness between the people of the present and the past which her upbringing in suburban America had not. In an era when more people than ever are living where we are not from, The Long Field has much to say about place, identity, past, present – and future.
The Long Field by Pamela Petro is published by Little Toller Books. ISBN 9781908213853
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